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Bitcoin The Hare Vs. Gold The Tortoise

August 19, 2022 Leave a comment

Just doing some Bitcoin doodling a bit here. 👇

I lost a little mojo recently, but I am rejuvenated (yet) again. The condensed version of the story is that for a few months before this week, I was convinced that the loss of feeling in my right leg and increase in pain in my lower lumbar were a one way street. Now I’m not! After 4 days of physical therapy via the direction of a McKenzie-trained therapist, I’ve felt some reversal of numbness and back pain. It’s a joyful event because it’s been months since I’ve felt this way. And the exercise (yes, singular tense), is stunningly easy to do.

Phew, just another up and down experience for a regular (but not normal) person with cancer ensconced in the patchwork medical system.

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I’ll Take The Necrosis, Please!

Each of my last two brain MRI scans indicated some small growth in one of my brain tumor sites. Thankfully, the encroaching Emperor’s orc breeding ground is not the tumor site that has been wreaking havoc on my right leg for 6 years. I’ll have much more to say about my leg fiasco in a subsequent rage-post.

Because of the two successive growths, my neurosurgeon ordered a PET/CT scan of my brain to determine if the tumor tissue had resumed its inexorable growth, or whether the tissue expansion is from radiation-induced necrosis. He said he suspected the tissue to be cancerous because of the images he saw via the MRIs.

PET/CT scans measure how much “sugar” is being consumed in various parts of the body. Ravenous tumors show up as bright areas on the scan where there shouldn’t be any. Here is the report from my scan….

Thankfully, my neurosurgeon’s instinct was wrong in this case. The cause of growth was due to radiation-induced necrosis, not because of the Orc army’s continuous murderous assaults on my physical being, i.e., tumor growth. Hallelujer for necrosis!

Even though the brute-force Orc battalions are being continuously beaten back by my trusty Opdivo infusions, the dastardly clever EOAM is always diligently working upstairs, in the abstract, ensuring to insert plenty of heavy, negative, fearful, anxious thoughts in my mind whenever he can. Fortunately, reading the PET/CT scan report cleaned house upstairs and allowed lighter, more positive, hopeful thoughts to fill the void in my mind.

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The Resolute Desk

July 14, 2022 2 comments

Dear OnlyFans, checkout BD00’s resolute desk below. Ok, it’s not a resolute desk. It’s a simple end table with a lot of schitt on it. The desk, along with my new, Osaki massage chair, will be cremated with me when the Emperor wins the final battle.

For those interested in WTF all those things crammed onto the desktop are, here you go…

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Why No Bitcoin Moon?

Anybody who knows me knows that I’m a Bitcoin whacko. I’m a true “maximalist” who won’t shut up once I start preaching about the arguably most important discovery in human history since fire. But I must admit, the latest price crash from $70k —> $16k was a mind-numbing whopper that nobody, and I mean nobody, famous in the space saw coming. Oh sure, the on-chain analysts and technicians always mention that crashes should be expected from time to time from the juvenile, highly volatile, asset class. Until the crash, technical data showed price volatility decreasing with Bitcoin’s increasing age as more people shed their fear of it and slowly learned of its huge, impending, worldwide importance.

I experienced the $20k —> $3k crash back in 2017, but that crash wasn’t as puzzling or scary as this one. That crash was from irrational exuberance, and Bitcoin was still under the radar of the establishment big guns.

The biggest contributor to the crash of 22 was due to Bitcoin being (wrongly) valuated by the market as a risk-on asset like a tech company with a high “P” but no “E”, as opposed to the risk-off asset it truly embodies, like gold or other commodities. And of course, another contributor to the crash was that a bunch centralized schittcoins scams and fake crypto banks got (and are still getting) rekt; bringing down the whole craptoverse and the honorable Bitcoin with them.

Besides the crash, which is explainable, there’s one other thing that troubles me. It’s about the slow uptake of Bitcoin around the world in these unprecedented inflationary times. This eye-popping inflation chart from economist Steve Henke shows how badly the corrupt and incompetent governments of nations around the world are debasing their currencies.

Are people who are lucky enough to earn more than they spend in these countries “stacking sats“? Why wouldn’t they exchange their excess fiat income into Bitcoin ASAP so it doesn’t lose half its value virtually overnight? There are a lot of countries in that table, so there’s got to be a lot of fiat value capable of jumping out of fiat hell and into Bitcoin paradise. I conclude that if people were moving value into Bitcoin en-masse in these inflation-battered nations, then the crash maybe wouldn’t have happened at all and we’d be halfway to the moon by now.

But wait, it gets worse! As the chart below shows, virtually every country on earth has been printing fiat like maniacs, even the so-called advanced countries – the enemy is us! This could portend a large wall of value flowing into Bitcoin and a giant pop in price soon if everyone personally experiences the Bitcoin epiphany simultaneously, out of desperation from watching in horror as their wealth melts away. It could be like Ray Kurzweil’s Singularity.

Via continuing education, I think the world will eventually realize Bitcoin’s role as the greatest Store Of Value technology ever discovered. It’s just gonna take longer than I would expect because of all the headwinds going against it, or maybe it won’t. I don’t know schitt.

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A Freshly Inked Maximalist

June 27, 2022 1 comment

With Bitcoin at $20k and the whole scummy craptoverse in tatters (which is a good thing for Bitcoin!), people are schittin’ bricks. But as any true student (100+ hours of sincere investigation) of Bitcoin knows, the hardest money ever discovered in human history is unstoppable. Hence, my fresh ink….

Cheers!

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Bitcoin Before Bitcoin

When I first discovered the divine invention that is Bitcoin from an obscure posting on the nerd site slashdot.org, I performed the proverbial deep, speedo-less, dive into this strange, new, multi-discipline (economics + computer science + cryptography) idea that grabbed my attention by the cajones. My first question was “how the feck can this digital monetary network be technically sound?” My second was “how the feck can Bitcoin be ‘decentralized’ (with no single point of failure or no benevolent dictator like Linus Torvalds in charge)?” My third was “what the feck do ‘trustless’ and ‘permissionless’ mean?” The questions came fast and furious out of nowhere. They were piling up inside my head and pushing every other thought overboard. Based on my gut feeling that there was something special brewing, I was primed and juiced to learn and understand the Bitcoin protocol.

Being an overpaid software engineer and not knowing anything about “real” money, I chose to go down the technical path first by downloading the C++ core source code from GitHub, compiling it, running the test suite, and then running the node software. I watched in wonder as the node software proceeded to synchronize with the worldwide Bitcoin network and download the entire blockchain. Every transaction that ever occurred over the network from t == 0, which was Jan 3, 2009, to t == now was written to my hard disk! I also interacted with some of the fiercely dedicated core developers on the web and I even submitted a simple aesthetic code change to the core development team (that was rejected, lol).

When I finally surfaced from the technical dive, I was convinced that Bitcoin was a brilliant work of original, intellectual art; the ninth wonder of the world. I developed a deep respect for, and a warm feeling of gratitude toward, whoever Satoshi Nakamoto was/is. I knew(know) that Bitcoin was(is) going to provide equal economic opportunity to billions of “unbanked” and inflation-ravaged people around the world. I just didn’t know how it would play out or how long it would take. Sadly, people who don’t understand Bitcoin from this worldly viewpoint either think of it as a scam or a speculative, profitless, stock.

One of the pleasant fringe benefits of diving deep into the Bitcoin protocol was discovering the obscure field of “Austrian Economics“. Despite taking the cookie cutter macro-economics course as an undergrad many moons ago, I never heard of this weird, heretical, way of thinking about money. Instead of classical economic growth through inflation, Austrian economists advocate for growth through deflation. Blasphemy!

The best thinkers in this reviled school of economic thought argue how something that the vast majority of us take for granted, the control of a nation’s money supply, should not be left in the hands of the rulers (politicians + central bankers). They will, as history has shown without exception, irresponsibly debase the nation’s fiat money (fiat means: you must use the paper money we control to pay taxes or else you will get rekt) over time by printing more of it whenever it’s politically expedient to fund their pet projects and wars instead of having the guts to impose taxes to pay for them. The pic below shows what inflation, via central bank and government collusion, has done to the purchasing power of the US dollar over 100 years.

Inflating away the purchasing power of fiat money happens in every country with a central bank. That’s a lot of feckin’ countries! It’s just a matter of how fast the debasement takes to destroy a nation. It’s faster for the citizens of developing countries (Zimbabwe, Venezuela, Argentina, Lebanon, Turkey) and slower for the citizens of developed countries.

Before my obsession with Bitcoin took hold, I took it for granted that government should control a nation’s fiat money supply. Hey, we should “trust” those we elect to be doing the right thing with our taxes and savings, no? That is the way it’s supposed to be, damnit! After diving deeper, I found that history has repeatedly shown that because of human nature (you know, that pesky Dawkins selfish gene), a nation’s rulers always manipulate the money supply and disrupt free markets not to “promote the general welfare” of its citizens like you, but to enrich themselves and their cronies at our expense.

The Austrian economists saw through the political charade. They learned that the only way for a nation’s citizens to truly flourish was to “take” control of money out of the hands of centralized governments and distribute it amongst the citizenry that honestly earns it through work. But what does “take” mean in the context of “take control of money out of the hands of the government?” How can anyone/group have any chance of pulling that off against a giant, multi-tiered, energy-guzzling, law enforcement apparatus? Unlike Bitcoin, which is backed by diligent Proof-of-Work, Government-controlled fiat money is backed by coercive Proof-of-Force.

One of the leading Austrian economists, Friedrich Hayek, brilliantly envisioned the blurry outline of Bitcoin, before Bitcoin, as the solution to the intractable “take” problem in 1984, 24 years before Satoshi Nakamoto conceived of Bitcoin in 2008.

It’s sad Mr. Hayek isn’t alive today to see that Bitcoin is his sly and roundabout way to “take the thing out of the hands of government“. And they can’t stop it.

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The Stank Of Scanxiety

With the usual stank of scanxiety in the air, I underwent my tri-monthly brain MRI scan yesterday.

The resulting reconnaissance images of the bloodied battlefield showed that one of the EOAM‘s Orc armies seems to have grown after a long, four-year (!!!!) hiatus.

The good news is that there were no new tumors detected on the battlefield; and the other three Orc cancer fortresses have remained quasi-quiescent in their respective puddles of edema due to the monthly, $25k, immunotherapy whuppin’s they’ve been gettin’.

Because of this new, but not-so-surprising development, a CT/PET scan of my brain is currently being scheduled in order for my generalissimo neurosurgeon to get a high resolution look at what those fugly Orcs are doing. My trusted Cyberknife friend will probably have to be deployed yet again to burn those feckers back into their hellholes. If not, it’s either brain surgery or hospice….. just kidding. I have no idea what will happen next until it happens. lol, let’s rock!

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A New Weapon

April 23, 2022 Leave a comment

I added a new doctor to my weapons cache in the ongoing death-match with the Emperor Of All Maladies. After getting a referral from my oncologist, I went to a neurologist for a consultation regarding the havoc my rebellious right leg is wreaking upon me due to the onslaught of the Emperor’s Orc army. I was curious to see if my newest Sun Tzu recruit could help blunt the progressive nerve deterioration I’ve been sensing along my entire leg (and feet).

As I arrived for my appointment, I quickly discovered that the beloved Bitcoin Vandal had preceded me. I find it Interesting how the BV has the same neurologist as BD00.

I’m very fond of my brilliant oncologist and neurosurgeon dynamic duo because they have taken good care of me for the past six (!!!!!) years, scanning and monitoring the locations, movements, and strength of the Emperor’s orc armies. It’s understandable that the spastic/twitching/quivering nerves and tight/fatigued/crampy muscles that have been plaguing me extra hard for the past few months are outside their areas of expertise. While not suffering in outright pain, it’s a continuous feeling of discomfort stuck somewhere in purgatory outside of the realm of the famously debated 1 -10 pain scale. Mentally, the agitating cacophony of physical sensations is constantly hijacking my awareness away from the sacred “now” and projecting it into a fabricated thought-storm of frightening “wheelchair” scenarios.

I actually didn’t meet with the neurologist during the visit. I was examined by his delightful LPA, Rose. We conversed for 45 minutes while she worked me over with all kinds of nerve-diagnostic gizmos that Q would be envious of. She was pushing, pulling, tapping, and poking all over the battlefield that is my right leg (and feet). Then, out of nowhere, in a Larry David moment, she stated that my calves were much bigger than my ankles. She paused and looked up at me as if I was supposed to know why. I frowned, shrugged, laughed, and asked her what the right proportion should be. She laughed, then I asked her if she was flirting with me, and then we both laughed at the absurdity of such a statement.

As Rose continued to examine my neurological state, she noticed the twitching frenzy going on just under my skin, and up and down my entire leg. I told her it feels tight, fatigued, crampy, and vibrating all at the same time (from Orc-hijacked nerves randomly misfiring and zapping the schitt out of my muscles?). She also noticed some twitches up and down my right arm. That was surprising to me because the arm feels fine and I’ve never had issues with it other than the occasional, chemo-induced, fingertip-numbness flareup. Oh, and also when I kept annoyingly dropping a notebook I was holding when I had a small stroke in 2019.

During our convo, we talked about the meds I’ve been taking to alleviate the symptoms from my nerve distress (gabapentin, alpha lipoic acid, B12, “ganja”). I also mentioned that I take klonopin occasionally for anxiety/sleep and I thought I noticed a positive correlation between the much-abused controlled substance and symptom alleviation. I wasn’t sure of the correlation because I don’t take it often and I couldn’t remember if I did so during bad flareups. Rose perked up and immediately said there absolutely was a positive correlation because klonopin serves as a muscle relaxant in addition to providing anti-seizure and anti-anxiety therapeutic effects. She then advised me to start taking a low dose daily.

I was both happy and sad when I heard Rose’s recommendation. I was happy because it’s just a dosage bump and not another new med to add to my drug cabinet. I was sad for two reasons:

1) I, the omniscient know-it-all, should’ve deduced that the klonopin-relief linkage made sense and thought of trying it daily months ago, Duh! Maybe I didn’t make the connection because of the threat of benzo-addiction loitering in the back of my mind, which is funny since I’m a stage 4 cancer patient and I shouldn’t give a schitt about addiction at this point. 😂🤣

2) I thought my neurosurgeon’s nurse (whom I also appreciate very much) should have suggested the bump in klonopin dosage to me years ago – since I’ve been whining about progressive neurologic problems at every MRI follow up since the beginning of time.

In addition to the suggested change in klonopin dosage, Rose ordered a 2 hour, full body MRI (in late May) to see if there’s a separate structural issue with my neck that may be causing or contributing to my chronic discomfort. I’ve never had the slightest neck problem before, but since she saw the same twitchy symptoms in my arm as the leg, she wants to cover that base.

So, that’s the latest update from the battlefront in my existential war with the fucker that is… the Emperor Of All Maladies.

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Rules Without Rulers II

April 18, 2022 Leave a comment

After I painted my “Rules Without Rulers” Picasso in the previous post, I stood back and reveled over the final product. Then, I experienced an unexpected communication from my creation. She whispered in my ear that something was amiss, but then she abruptly stopped speaking. She left it to the student, me, to figure out what was amiss. Hmm, I thought… interesting. Then, the words “add another layer” crossed the cavern from the formless into form and instantaneously appeared within my ringing+dizzy+stoned head (my pesky, hemorrhaging, brain lesions are leaking again!).

Being a hard-core admirer of the power of abstraction to pierce the armor of complexity, increase clarity, and catalyze understanding of something weird like “How Can There Be Rules without Rulers?”, I immediately determined that my lovely meant “another layer of abstraction“. So, here’s my encore painting showing how two examples of “rules without rulers” cross the chasm from the spiritual to the physical realm.

The intent is to postulate the path from energy -> thought -> words(code). The updated picture shows that Moses and Satoshi were animated by a universal life force from a mysterious layer “above them“, which represents a higher power of your choice (Yahweh, Allah, Gaiea, Tao, Zeus, etc.) Thus, they were lucky conduits to two world-changing ideas birthed for man, from no-man.

How’s that for another serving of BS from BD00?

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Rules Without Rulers

April 17, 2022 3 comments

When you glance at the picture below, please don’t go overboard and think I’m comparing lord Satoshi to god. The purpose of this post is simply to compare the 10 commandments with the Bitcoin protocol for comedic effect, nothing more. Happy Easter!!!!!

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