Bulldozer00's Blog

I’ve had the Kindle version of it for awhile, but I’ve finally got around to reading “Gurdjieff” by John Shirley. I’m glad I did because early in the book, this passage stirred up some internal energy:

According to the Gospel of Thomas, Jesus said, ‘ Let him who seeks continue seeking, until he finds. When he finds, he will become troubled. When he becomes troubled, he will be astonished, and he will rule over all.'”

It caused an energy surge because I’ve seeked and found trouble, deep trouble, multiple times. I’ve found that virtually everyone, both individually and collectively, behaves unconsciously according to the selfish “I” thought. Of course, this mass of humanity includes me, especially.

So, I’ve seeked, found trouble, and became astonished. However, I’ve yet to “rule over all”, which I think wasn’t meant to be taken literally. Hell, I’d settle for just ruling over my false self. How about you, have you found trouble?