Bulldozer00's Blog

As a result of studying the works of many spiritual teachers , I try hard to be consciously aware of my thoughts as they occur in real-time. I try to be simultaneously both the observer and the observee. However, I’m always too late in recognizing self-defeating behaviors triggered by negative thoughts. I have a negative thought, spout out  some toxic verbal diarrhea , and then recognize my stupidity after the fact. It almost seems like I’d be better off if I stayed blissfully unconscious and unaware of my thoughts and behavior.

Internal thoughts produce internal feelings, and internal feelings drive external behavior. You can’t control which thoughts magically appear in your head, but if you’re vigilantly aware and awake, you can consciously choose to let hurtful thoughts naturally float away without taking action. The more ego-dominated you are, the less likely you are to release the negative thoughts and preempt stupid behavior.  Having said that, I realize that I’m totally dominated by ego. How about you?